I hate running. I hate running so much that I kind of love it. And sometimes….I film it.
5 years That’s how long she had been clean from drugs. Heroin to be exact. 5 years and it wasn’t easy. It took grit, discipline, and determination. But she did it. And she was proud of it. She saw everything in her life improve. Her finances. Her family. Her relationships. But like most things in […]
I’m 30,000 feet in the air. Looking out the airplane window. Somewhere over Central America. The mountains of Nicaragua are getting closer. Sometimes we find ourselves in places we didn’t expect and have no better explanation than the most obvious. But let me back up for a second. I need to tell you a few […]
“I thought you worked out?” I wasn’t even half way up the mountain trail yet. My lungs burned as I gasped for air. My friend was giving me a hard time. He thought I would be in better shape. “Yeah, but not at this altitude.” I reassured him. “Air’s too thin.” I tried to mutter […]
WARNING: THIS IS A GUEST POST FROM MY WIFE. ENJOY I had a baby at Vacation Bible School… Well, to be clear, we took in a foster baby, and I brought him to VBS. Chris and I have been foster parents for over three years. We’ve had several placements during that time, and one […]
Last night, Dennis Rodman taught me how to rebound. It would seem there’s more to it than I had previously thought. Technique, skill, patience, anticipation, foot work. The rebound is a fundamental skill in basketball. Often neglected. And Dennis Rodman showed me how. I woke up before he could teach me to dunk. In 1997, […]
Trying something new. Because, maybe you hate to read. If you have any ideas for videos, let me know. Thanks for reading, watching, and just being you.
She was born premature and suffered from multiple medical problems. She had insurance. But no doctor in town accepted that insurance. Not even me. (It was a specific state recommended insurance. And I could write a post just on the nefarious actions of this company, but I won’t. At least not yet.) I treated her for free […]
Over 50,000 people died from drug overdoses in 2015. Around 15,000 were from prescription opioids. Another 10,000 from heroin. These statistics are haunting. Here’s what happens. We see a trend. We feel panic. We put laws and restrictions in place. Then, prescription deaths will go down but heroin deaths will go up. Meth use will […]
I am fascinated by people that live in vans. My wife thinks I’m crazy. “Trust me” I tell her. “I don’t want to live in a van.” She doesn’t believe me. I saw a van the other day. It’s tires were lifted. It looked like it could go off road. I showed my daughter. […]
Walking along a path outside of a hotel room. I’m in Orlando, Florida. There’s a lagoon and a beach to my left. At the waterfront, a 5 foot fence separates the beach and the water. This fence is to keep the alligators out. Small cabins on stilts, stand out in the shallow water. You can […]
As I get older, I have become more and more fascinated with people’s stories. I am in a privileged position as people open up their lives to me. For example, it is quite common for patients to tell me, “you are the only person I can talk to.” What they mean is, other people don’t […]
The sign read, “Jaegermeister and Donuts” Well, I don’t mind if I do. I was at mile 15. At mile 15, your mind doesn’t always make the best decisions. Maybe it was survival mode. My brother declined. He makes better decisions than I do. This was The Flying Pig, in Cincinnati. My first and only […]
I stopped my cholesterol medicine 2 years ago. I didn’t want to take medication for the rest of my life. So I became a vegetarian. I did this for 11 months. My cholesterol improved. But I lost focus and added back fish. And everybody knows that fish is the gateway food to chicken. And from chicken […]
I smoked a cigarette. It was my first time. I was exhausted, stressed, and had no idea what I was going to do with the rest of my life. I had just finished taking my first medical school exam. I knew I was a failure and would soon be kicked out of school. My friend […]
I want to tell you about the time I almost died. One minute I was hiking up a mountain in Colorado, and the next I was staring into the great abyss. Unsteady feet, heart pounding, lungs burning. Pulled to safety by my friends. I survived. I leave the details out because it’s not important. I […]
Ever wonder what it would be like to be homeless, living out of your car, and clueless as to how you are going to feed your new baby? I can’t even imagine what that must feel like. The worry, the fear, the panic. It’s not the way I’d want to start a new year. It’s not […]
At 9 yrs old, when most girls her age were playing with dolls, pretending to be a princess, or putting on make-up for the first time, she was sold to the neighbor down the street as a sex slave. Sold by her mother for nothing more than money to buy drugs. In her 30 some […]
Most of the time when you ask someone about Christmas, they like to reply “I’m ready for it to be over”. But, not me. I love Christmas. I love the crisp, cold nights. The decorations. The songs. The spirit. My 4 yr old searching for that stupid elf with eyes wide, full of wonder and […]
I made a lot of money one summer in high school. I was 16 years old and a lifeguard at the city pool. But that’s not where the money is. The money is in private swimming lessons. We offered swimming lessons to the community. Mostly these were young kids. Kids are easy to train. You […]
Dorothy and her friends marched into the field. The deadly poppies awaited. The scent so strong and powerful, that anyone that smelled it would fall fast asleep….and sleep forever. Dorothy and the Lion were no match. The poison filled their lungs and soon they would dream for eternity. Fortunately, the Scarecrow and the Tin […]
Do you want to stop smoking but it seems too difficult? Is there something you want to change, but don’t know where to start? I’ve seen it all too often. People get caught up in life and let the flow of the river take them downstream. They passively accept outcomes and try to make as […]
Levitation The act of levitating The raising or rising of a body by supernatural means I want to tell you about the time I tried to levitate. I was 15 years old and had recently read Anne Rice’s the tale of the body thief. Inspired, I decided to try my hand at meditation. I thought, […]
Doctoring her seemed to her as absurd as putting together the pieces of a broken vase. Her heart was broken. Why would they try to cure her with pills and powders? ― Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina Cigarettes, alcohol, fast cars, red meat, pollution. These are the things we think will kill us. Or else, […]
Every Christmas my mother gives the gift of money to her older grandchildren. She will normally write them a note. The note will have instructions on what they can and can’t spend the money on. They are not allowed to use the money to get tattoos. I am the reason this note exists. My […]
“You are going to die there” The voice said to me. I was getting ready to go to work, but in a week I was leaving for Haiti on a medical mission trip. The voice wasn’t audible. It was inside my mind. Was this my subconscious running wild? Was it my fears expressing itself? Was […]
DISCLAIMER: You shouldn’t get parenting advice from the internet. I am not an expert. If you want to know how to raise the perfect child, go ask my mom. With that being said, here’s 666 tips on bringing up little angels. 1. Let ’em eat dirt Sometimes, kids just need to be let loose. Let […]
She started using heroin at 16. She started with a bang and never looked back. Most people stop here and really want to know the hows and the whys. Absent parents? Abuse? Wrong crowd at an early age? Horrible decisions coupled with a genetic tendency towards addiction? Maybe it’s all of these. Maybe it’s […]
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about death. I don’t mean to be morbid. But recently I was slapped in the face with the cold hard fact that we live here in finite terms. You can play by all the right rules. It doesn’t matter. It’s coming for you and for me. The sneak attack, […]
“So, exactly what religion are you?” J asked. We were sitting across from each other at a Mexican restaurant. “A christian mystic” I replied. He about fell into the floor laughing. He stopped long enough to catch his breath. “What the hell is that?” He asked with an infectious grin. “I’m not really sure” I said, […]
WAIT! STOP! DON’T READ ANY FURTHER OK, you’ve been warned. I’m about to offer you two choices. A red pill and a blue pill. Take the blue pill. Trust me. Just take the blue pill and go back to your normal life, with your perfect matching bed sheets and comforter, your Netflix marathons, your gas […]
“I’m quite illiterate, but I read a lot. ” —J.D. Salinger The Catcher in the Rye There is so much to learn and so little time. I am always reading. A friend of mine suggested I write a post on books that I recommend. So I started a BOOK CLUB. The first rule of BOOK […]
She came to the clinic with tear-stained eyes and bruised arms. Her husband long gone, this time the violence was from her son. He was growing up to be just like his father. A chip off the old block. She was torn between the love a mother has for a son and her concern for […]
In the United States, there are over 400,000 children in the foster system. Over 400,000 lives left in the balance. I am not writing this to try and persuade you to help. I only want to share with you a few of the things I have learned. 1. patience Many consider DHS to be a […]
my past is what made me yesterday i am who makes me today tomorrow i will be more of who i am today god willing, and willing he seems to be
Do you ever feel overwhelmed? Like the weight of the world is resting on your shoulders and you are slowly smothering? It happens to all of us. What if there was something you could do, that would lift that burden off of you. And because it was lifted, you could feel light again and breathe […]
“Look at that thug” He motioned to his wife from the driver’s side. The thug in question was walking down Main Street. He had 2 children following along side him. He had shorts and a tank top. He was covered in tattoos, had a thick beard, and crisp shaved head. His wife looked to where […]
He was severely depressed. He saw no point in living. He promised he wouldn’t hurt himself. He was being honest on 2 out of the 3. He had tried countless medicines, had been to counseling, had been in the psychiatric hospital multiple times. Nothing worked. He continued to spiral into the darkness of depression. And […]
We are going through a brief synopsis of the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. If you missed the previous posts on this series, you can catch up here: step 1 step 2 step 3 step 4 We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. You must write the biting commentary of your life. […]
Low back pain is one of the most common causes for a trip to the doctor’s office. Back pain can either be acute or chronic. Chronic back pain is defined as pain that has lasted for greater than 12 weeks. Millions of Americans suffer from chronic pain. Chronic pain sucks. Just ask anyone that deals […]
I am going to tell you the 3 keys to success. It’s a simple formula. Say yes to almost everything Say no to most things. Provide value to someone else Now how do these 3 things work together? How can you say yes and say no? Let me explain. yes First, when you are starting […]
I held a newborn baby today. I listened to her heart and her lungs. I counted her fingers and toes. I reassured the parents. 30 minutes prior to this, I was in the room with a 60 year old woman having a heart attack. I looked over her labs and her EKG. I ordered her […]
We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him So, you finally accepted the 1st Step. You gritted your teeth and acknowledged and hoped that the 2nd step was true. And now, you are here. Not an easy decision for many. God is […]
“I’m going back to my ex-wife” “Why?” I asked. I thought I already knew the answer. “You don’t understand. If you saw her you would. The sex is amazing” He had said something similar the last time we spoke but at that point he was just hooking back up with her for the sex. I […]
“He who goes about to reform the world must begin with himself, or he loses his labor” Ignatius of Loyola You’ve got to take care of yourself. It’s common sense, but often ignored. Everybody knows that you fix your own oxygen mask before anyone else’s. But why? Time after time I hear patients worrying […]
“What a man believes may be ascertained, not from his creed, but from the assumptions on which he habitually acts.”—George Bernard Shaw We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. Some find themselves kicking against the gourd, others lying prostrate, while others with a sigh. However you find […]
Can you walk the noble path? Do you have what it takes? Do you have the long view?
“Keep coming back, it works if you work it” —Recovery saying The 12 steps were initially designed to help treat the addiction of alcoholism and later was extended to Narcotics Anonymous. Around since the 1930’s, they have survived the test of time simply because they work. There is so much truth packed into these. But there […]
I love my job. It is fun and exciting. It holds mystery and chaos. The job is serious business, but done with a smile. My patients become my community. We work together towards a common goal of health and vitality. They don’t always take my advice, but that is OK. I don’t always follow my […]
It is mid-September. I love this season. I love the smell, the sights, the cool breeze. It feels like a new beginning, every time. It gives me energy. It gives me hope. I feel brand new.
Here are 12 steps that you can take to start your path to recovery. They are practical and useful. Don’t be fooled. It doesn’t have to be complicated. You still need to work the real 12 steps. But these are going to help you get your life back on track. Trust me. They work. Be […]
Christmas is a depressing time for many of my patients. Stockings full of broken relationships and regretful memories. The challenge to prove yourself can be overwhelming. Not only is sobriety demanded, but any flaw in character will be called out and your past will be paraded in front of you again, and again, and again. […]
Minimalism is an idea. A process. At it’s heart, it brings in the things that are important and leaves out the things that are not. This process can can be healing for anyone. You are getting rid of the things that drag you down to be bring in the things that will make you […]
A simple task, should always be done well. Simple tasks are all there are. We create the vertical. We create the horizontal. Our lives intersect. We grow through truth. We grow through love. The task is to love. To love well.
Clearing out the closet, I clear out my mind. To remove the junk, and restore the soul. My Coffee is my meditation. Black. The blue sky above.
Live free. 1. Make room in your life. This means getting rid of the junk. This may mean separating yourself from some people. That is ok. If going to AA meetings only makes you want to go and get a drink after, then stop going to AA meetings. If you have your dealer’s phone number […]
Change your life. If it’s not working. Change it. You are not your addiction. You can be free.
1. Live intentionally Focus on the present. Make your choices. Own your choices. 2. Live Simply Get rid of junk. Get rid of excess. Make do with less. 3. Enjoy today Start now.
According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA) “In 2010, an estimated 22.6 million Americans aged 12 or older—or 8.9 percent of the population—had used an illicit drug or abused a pyschotherapeutic medication (such as a pain reliever, stimulant, or tranquilizer) in the past month”. The NIDA goes on to state “There continues to be […]
I am a physician living and working in Mississippi. I write about addiction, minimalism, health, and anything else I can think of. I started this blog as a resource for my patients. It has become an outlet for my thoughts. The good, the bad, and the confusing.